Showing posts with label a little space for me.... Show all posts
Showing posts with label a little space for me.... Show all posts
Thursday, January 24, 2013
FINDING
Feeling the windy wind on my face,
Closing my eyes, taking a breath,
Trying to feel the calmness,
Hoping a solid answer will come,
By the moment i open my eyes....
If questions are meant to be answered,
Will there be a reward?
How can YES or NO be a simple reply?
Tell me....
Focusing my eyes on my opened palm hand,
Noticing the small size of it, closing my hand,
Trying to feel the determination,
Thinking of a solution to use,
When i start my first step ahead....
If problems are meant to be resolved,
Will justice can be confirmed?
What TRUE and WRONG use for?
Explain....
The questions will be the roots,
The answers will be the leaves,
The problems will be the fruits,
The solutions will be the tastes.....
Thursday, October 28, 2010
UNTITLED #2
At the moment that the sun rises after a sleepless night
I hope the blue scenery before my eyes,could help me lessen my pain,
But, i think, i hope too much,
Cuz, someone please tell me where should i go?
I walk with a purpose, but i still can't find it,
I dunno wat's wrong with me anymore,
It seems like the more i try searching for the answer,
the more i think about it, the more lessen i understand,
So, should i just run away again?
Again? Juz how many times have i done it....
At the moment tht the rain pours after a restless day,
I hope the grey scenery before my eyes, could let me rest a bit,
Juz like before, i guess i demand too much,
Even just from the scenery around me, makes me feel so lonely,
Someone please tell me what can i do?
I grip my pen, in front of me, is a piece of paper,
I know my actions must mean something to me,
If i take one step forward, it can change my life,
But, what if, i postponed this thought of mine?
I mean, maybe i'm juz not ready yet,
We can't be blamed for changing our minds, right? Or we?
Tsk, why do unsure 'answers' like these should be born at the beginning?
Hm, i'll face a lot of unseen things in my unseen yet future,
This is for sure, i acknowledged it,
On my journey that will continue tomorrow,
Gain hopes and courage r all i need,
I'll keep on praying for a better end for everything tht i start...
Dun give up, juz do ur best,
Wish me luck!!
Ah~~~
Hishashiburi...its been quite a long tym, since the last entry i posted on this blog...
Fufu...there r times when i thought tht i'm gonna delete this blog, cuz im too lazy to update it....
but, no one knows.... ^_^
this 'a little space for me...', if i'm not mistaken, i wrote it while i'm at matriks.... at that tym, i was so down....
i dunno wat to do anymore, i felt like this 'world' is too mean for me to live on.... i felt so useless and such a loser out of all the losers out there....i even thought of dropping out from matriks.... to that extend huh? well yeah, if u in a very emotional mode, tht's wat u got....
but, thanx to these words, slogan, kata penguat semangat or wat eva they called it, i managed to calm myself....
Arghhhhhh~
juz how much i hate those words!!! but, nevertheless, i guess, the more we hate it, the more we like it,ne? heh..... those words seem so lame, but i have to admit it, it help me a lot through these past years of mine....
Hishashiburi...its been quite a long tym, since the last entry i posted on this blog...
Fufu...there r times when i thought tht i'm gonna delete this blog, cuz im too lazy to update it....
but, no one knows.... ^_^
this 'a little space for me...', if i'm not mistaken, i wrote it while i'm at matriks.... at that tym, i was so down....
i dunno wat to do anymore, i felt like this 'world' is too mean for me to live on.... i felt so useless and such a loser out of all the losers out there....i even thought of dropping out from matriks.... to that extend huh? well yeah, if u in a very emotional mode, tht's wat u got....
but, thanx to these words, slogan, kata penguat semangat or wat eva they called it, i managed to calm myself....
'Dun give up, juz do ur bez'
Arghhhhhh~
juz how much i hate those words!!! but, nevertheless, i guess, the more we hate it, the more we like it,ne? heh..... those words seem so lame, but i have to admit it, it help me a lot through these past years of mine....
Jaa, mata ne, minna san!
Bye, bye!
Bye, bye!
current mood :
Monday, May 10, 2010
BE WHO I AM
A seed dropped in a gap in the garden,
It is bathed in the sun and sprouts,
It heads straight up towards the sky,
without questioning it,
But, look at me now,
i'm worrying too much n looks so down,
But, i also dun wanna being in this situation,
where words like "Ah, i dunno! ","I can't!" slip out through my mouth
so easily,
These words really scared me to death!
It is bathed in the sun and sprouts,
It heads straight up towards the sky,
without questioning it,
But, look at me now,
i'm worrying too much n looks so down,
But, i also dun wanna being in this situation,
where words like "Ah, i dunno! ","I can't!" slip out through my mouth
so easily,
These words really scared me to death!
That's why, now, I'll lift up my face again like who i am,
All those falling times, i need to get rid all of it,
So, that
i can lift up my face again n be who i am,
I'll keep on going to the extend until i find, my truly future...
Even if it's blown by the wind and knocked down,
Without questioning it,
it sets down its roots and rises up again,
When it ready, it bloom into a beautiful flower,
But look at me now, i'm pausing n sittin helplessly on this big rock,
While i'm staring down at our one little friend here,
It made me realize,
"It started with a very small seed, but with its strong will, it managed to grow on its own..."
That's why, now,
I'll standing up on my own feet again like who i am,
Those awaiting bright days, i have to chase it,
So, that
i can standing up on my own feet again n be who i am,
I'll show them all, the very best version of me!
That's why, now,
Be who i am,
I'll stake my dreams on the yet unseen world...
Friday, May 7, 2010
LET ME BE 'YOU' FOR YOU
Am i even trying hard?
or am i become someone who useless again?
You were there, alone by yourself,
staring down on the ground, like it was the most interesting thing at that moment,
The weather became so mean to u that night,
Wrapped in that wet sweater i gave it to u last year,
u look like a lost child in other people's eyes,
Waiting for his mom to come and embracing him, or
someone to save him from this emptiness...
When i'm in need, u'll help me,
When i'm lost in nowhere, u'll find me,
When i'm feeling down, u bring me back my smile,
'This' kind of u,
I really envy it...
Right, now in front of me, there were u,
"Hey, what's wrong? You look unhappy", you peer at me with a worried look on ur face,
"It's you, blame it on u, it's your fault",
Oh, how much i wish i could say that to u,
You are the reason behind this worried face of mine,
But seeing u smile at me, the one's that wasn't fake,
Let me slipped all of my 'mean' words under my desk...
When i'm in need, u'll help me,
When i'm lost in nowhere, u'll find me,
When i'm feeling down, u bring me back my smile,
'This' kind of u,
I really envy it...
So,
Am i even trying hard?
or am i become someone who helpless again?
Please, juz one thing,
only one thing that i want u to do it for me,
The next time,
"When u in need, let me help u",
"When u lost in nowhere, let me find u",
"When u feeling down, let me bring u back ur smile",
'This' kind of saying,
You won't mind if i borrow it for a while, right? =)
So, let me be 'YOU' for you, even juz for a minute....
or am i become someone who useless again?
You were there, alone by yourself,
staring down on the ground, like it was the most interesting thing at that moment,
The weather became so mean to u that night,
Wrapped in that wet sweater i gave it to u last year,
u look like a lost child in other people's eyes,
Waiting for his mom to come and embracing him, or
someone to save him from this emptiness...
When i'm in need, u'll help me,
When i'm lost in nowhere, u'll find me,
When i'm feeling down, u bring me back my smile,
'This' kind of u,
I really envy it...
Right, now in front of me, there were u,
"Hey, what's wrong? You look unhappy", you peer at me with a worried look on ur face,
"It's you, blame it on u, it's your fault",
Oh, how much i wish i could say that to u,
You are the reason behind this worried face of mine,
But seeing u smile at me, the one's that wasn't fake,
Let me slipped all of my 'mean' words under my desk...
When i'm in need, u'll help me,
When i'm lost in nowhere, u'll find me,
When i'm feeling down, u bring me back my smile,
'This' kind of u,
I really envy it...
So,
Am i even trying hard?
or am i become someone who helpless again?
Please, juz one thing,
only one thing that i want u to do it for me,
The next time,
"When u in need, let me help u",
"When u lost in nowhere, let me find u",
"When u feeling down, let me bring u back ur smile",
'This' kind of saying,
You won't mind if i borrow it for a while, right? =)
So, let me be 'YOU' for you, even juz for a minute....
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
UNTITLED
I know we live in a 'game of life',
there are ups and down,
Lies can be found at anywhere, anytime
selfishness has ballooned up into a lot of monsters,
All these kind of things, really make me sick!
Oh, i wish i could vanish it all,
disappear from my sight right now!
Then, i think i can feel much better...
My eyes keep on rolling to the right, to the left
following a random movement right before my eyes,
and switch again one after another,
Under the same light blue sky, white clouds, tell me,
Is there any different,
between the soul and its own shadow,
once the sunlight touches them?
Laws can tell us 'right and wrong' easily,
Laws are made 'in' our lives, but why
is it so hard to tell 'right and wrong' in my own life?
"Thank you" and "I'm sorry",
these words somehow have been forgotten,
Hey, if u were offered a key to conquer XX,
will u take it?
By hearing ur answer, r u worth to be judged of?
My mind and my heart keep on telling me,
"will i find something new today?"
but, my body dunno how to react with it,
Under the same dark blue sky, white clouds, tell me,
Is there any different,
between the soul and its own shadow,
once the moonlight touches them?
I know this is kind of lame,
but as long as u are able to breath in this world,
bad things will never stop finding u,
and good things won't come to u, without u
even slightly try to search for it...
there are ups and down,
Lies can be found at anywhere, anytime
selfishness has ballooned up into a lot of monsters,
All these kind of things, really make me sick!
Oh, i wish i could vanish it all,
disappear from my sight right now!
Then, i think i can feel much better...
My eyes keep on rolling to the right, to the left
following a random movement right before my eyes,
and switch again one after another,
Under the same light blue sky, white clouds, tell me,
Is there any different,
between the soul and its own shadow,
once the sunlight touches them?
Laws can tell us 'right and wrong' easily,
Laws are made 'in' our lives, but why
is it so hard to tell 'right and wrong' in my own life?
"Thank you" and "I'm sorry",
these words somehow have been forgotten,
Hey, if u were offered a key to conquer XX,
will u take it?
By hearing ur answer, r u worth to be judged of?
My mind and my heart keep on telling me,
"will i find something new today?"
but, my body dunno how to react with it,
Under the same dark blue sky, white clouds, tell me,
Is there any different,
between the soul and its own shadow,
once the moonlight touches them?
I know this is kind of lame,
but as long as u are able to breath in this world,
bad things will never stop finding u,
and good things won't come to u, without u
even slightly try to search for it...
* i can't find good words to put as the title for this 'a little space for me',, so i'll juz let it untitled...
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
YOU + ME = LOVE ?
We were told that we got another 20 minutes before the exam is finished,
From the corner of my eyes, I was watching you,
With a bored face, you put your pen gently on the table,
Rest your head down juz beside the answer sheets,
Your eyes were closed, but your lips curved into a smile,
Why is this beautiful feeling always overflow,
everytime I see your smile?
I'm clueless,but I'm also curious bout this 'problem',
I want to solve it, but I definitely need help!
Wouldn't it be nice if there is a 'love teacher' ?
So, tht she can tell me, does
1 + 1 = LOVE ?
'Dunk it!', these words kept on echoing in your mind,
You, being yourself, never wanting to let down your friends,
With an ease, you did it splendidly
You've sprained your ankle at the end of the game,
Without a doubt, u must be in pain right now,
Not wanting to be spoiled by your friends, you laughed...
Why is this smile always overflow,
whenever I hear you laugh?
This 'silliness' really drive me crazy,
I want to heal it, but I definitely need help!
Wouldn't it be nice if there is a 'doctor love' ?
So, that he can tell me, does
Pain + Medicine = LOVE ?
Oh, please! Someone, please teach me!
I really dunno anything bout this matter,
Oh, please! Someone, please help me!
I really dunno wat to do anymore,
But, there is only one thing I know for sure,
I want tht, standing before me isn't anyone else but you...
Wouldn't it be nice if I can master this thing called 'LOVE' ?
So, that my heart can tell me,
YOU + ME = LOVE...
Monday, January 11, 2010
THIS IS OUR LITTLE STORY...
As I gaze at the stars,
I’ll always remember you,
So small,yet so bright,
Enough to give the light I need,
Without me realize it,
A smile curved on my lips.
Those days we spent together,
Were so full of our laughter and tears,
We thought of something to satisfy ourselves,
Even for just those meaningless things,
Made us realize how precious there are now.
There were also times, when we were not as ‘one’ as usual,
Silly us, kept arguing on the same old mistakes,
Again and again,
Apologize became so hard as we both are ego,
In the end, we couldn’t hold any longer of this lonely feeling,
“Sorry, don’t be mad again, ok?” slipped through our mouths so easily.
When something seems to be pushing you down,
Honestly, I was worried of you,
Trying my best to comfort you, even though I already knew it’s a useless,
Because I always fail when it comes to this matter,
And you knew bout it, right?
Instead of ignoring me, you reply me with a smile,
I felt relieve, thank you.
Now, my days may not be like I want it to be,
Because of the dream that we have to chase,
We have to separate,
Gonna miss this our little story,
That ‘s a must for my ‘memory’,
I juz hope this is not just an imaginary…
Thank you for cherish my days,
Wish you always in His bless…
GOOD BYE,THANK YOU
I will send this voice to you,
I want to tell you properly this time,
To say thank you, rather than goodbye,
I can say it from my heart,
That I’m glad we met.
These are just memories which won’t increase,
I’ve been embracing them since then,
In the casual times,
I was choking on the important things,
My nights weren't the same anymore,
Now there are nights when I feel depressed,
Somewhere in my heart ,
The truth is I was always waiting,
Waiting for a miracle,
That I can hear you say those words to me.
I want to see you, in my dreams would be fine,
And just one more time would be fine too,
I always thought of you,
As being someone special.
If this voice were to reach you,
I want to tell you properly this time,
To say thank you, rather than goodbye,
I can say it from my heart,
I’m glad we met,
Even juz for a short time...
/bye
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