may all praises be to Allah SWT... alhamdulillah, i've managed to go through my first week as a second year's student with ease... in this first 10 days, students of UMP must be very busy re-scheduling their timetable, where add and drop of subjects will be conducted during this first 10 days.... uni students are no more like school students, where we are not allow to choose our teachers.... with this 'open registration' system, uni students are given the opportunity to 'choose' their lecturers along with the subjects that they want to take in their current semester.... great? 50:50 for me.... there will be the pros and cons.... 

i myself also busy rescheduling my own timetable.... doing some 'homework' with other friends, trying to find out who arethe best lecturers in some of the subjects that we are currently take in..... hmm.... during my way in doing all these things, there was one time where suddenly i realized.... 

"why are we so bothered with this? why can't we be like school students, where they have no worries in this 'choosing-picking who's gonna teach us'-thingy? i do remember and i do believe in every school there are teachers that are less favorited by the students, but still if those students have these kind of teachers as one of their teacher's subject, students have no rights to 'drop that subject and went straight to the other class, hoping they are 'saved' in the other class and for sure they will get A's in that particular subject'....hmmmm.... =("

this thought of mine, kinda tryin to tell me something.... something that i hate to admit, but it has the truth, and i know it....

"am i too scared to facing my subjects? i'm losing.... i'm getting too immersed with grades and comfortable position... tryin my best to avoid.... 'challenges'....."

even in games, cheat code is the best at first.... but after you win the game, you can have the joy just for a short time.... and plus, it is actually a 'fake joy'..... and you know it better ''why?''.....

Assalamualaikum wr wb... alhamdulillah may all praises be to Allah... fufu.... next september, i'll continue my studies again.... new semester.... and as a second year student to be more precisely.... lovely.... alhamdulillah, i managed to finish my first year last june with.... hmm, not so flying ranbow-ing  colours, but most importantly, i love my second sem's result, i'm so grateful with it.... =)

Up until now, the thought of reluctant studying physics and unstable condition bearing the name as a mechanical engineering student is still playing in my mind and not to mention, my heart too.... when i'm all alone in my room, i'll always recalling back the moments when i was an eager bio student (eager? well, exaggerated a bit there...fufu~ ) during my matriks' life.... i always imagining things, what if right now i'm wearing a white cloth and studying human anatomy or reading a thick book and writing down the summary and all the points that needed to be taken noted on? isn't it nice......? isn't it gonna looks sooo perfect like what i've imagined my future of when i was still studying at matriks back then? hmm....

But, all of those were in the past dear.... all the futures with white coat and all the nerdy looking of you that you kept on imagining once, had now gone.... it's gone.... or should it be like it never even have a chance to happen in the first place, to be well said.... yup, well said.... =)

SO! NOW, WAKE UP MY DEAR!! you are no longer need to remember those not-gonna-happen futures of yours with sad and regret feelings anymore.... but, at the same time, do not forget all those happy moments when you trying so hard sketched your precious futures back then before you went to sleep... those moments are lovely.... so kept them well in your memories.... no need to get rid of it, cuz when the time comes that is, 10 or 20 years ahead, and you'll remember it again,  you gonna smile and laughing at it....^^

as what i've written above, now with the new semester waiting ahead in less than 2 weeks, i have made up my mind.... this one, is gonna be the real one.... i wanna say it out loud..

Assalamualaikum wr wb.... alhamdulillah, today, we, aminuddin 02-04 managed to having our iftar together.... it'll surely gonna be in one of my precious memories... thank youuu sooo much you handsome guys and lovely girls... and also thank you for paying the food for us girls.... =)

ok, knew it, my eyes closed... huhu...

why huh that 'pak cik' didn't count 1,2,3... ugh~ =(

the guys~

the girls~

wassalam...

Assalamualaikum wr wb.... Ramadhan has comes to its end.... ya Allah, ya rabb, i'm gonna miss this Ramadhan again.... during Ramadhan we are encouraged to do a lot of ibadah, be it the wajib ones or the sunat ones, do it as much as you can.... especially tarawih, ya Allah, only in this holy Ramadhan that we can perform sunat tarawih, but still, why many people still 'malas' to do it? rugilah saudara/ri ku sayang ....

for me, this Ramadhan gives me chances to overlook back all the things that i've done before this.... muhasabah diri??? actually muhasabah diri needs to be done everyday before sleep, but oh well, i guess i'm to into dunia so much that i always take this thing lightly... astaghfirullah....

so, today, my friend asked me something about malam lailatul qadar and a hadith riwayat Bukhari... she asked me whether last night, 23 Ramadhan, is the malam lailatul qadar or not... and i answered her with.... hmm, quite a simple answer, no need to write it down here.... then, all of sudden, i dunno where this power of mine came from, urging me to google about that lailatul qadar so that i can give this girl a more proper answer.... and i did.... ya Allah, so many things that i actually didn't know about lailatul qadar.... how... how ignorance am i?

i'm old already... twenty-year-old.... at least for me, that's what i thought about my age.... but then again, a lot of things  i still do not know.... i always, always take things too lightly....that's why i guess, even sometimes the simplest information can slip through my fingers easily, without i'm noticing it, how actually important it is..... then, this came.... one question from my friend of mine brought me to reality.... thank you so much....

i need to learn, and keep on learning with no ends.... i do not want to be trap in this 'ignorance balloon' anymore, it'll be blown up for nothing....

Assalamualaikum.... alhamdulillah, that i'm given another chance to live in this holy month, Ramadhan.... i'm on my holiday, waiting to enter university back in about a month ahead.... while waiting to continue my next sem. i've managed to contact some of my old friends.... of course i'm happy, being able to talk, having a nice conversation with, hanging out with them again .... but, aside from that..... what i've come to realize is that.... some of them, are "changing"....  ^^

some changed from bad to good, alhamdulillah.... some, good to better, masyaAllah.... and some, mebe need our guidance to bring them back where they should be.... we are not perfect and we live in this dunia with everyone.... helping each other is a must.... though, we might not that good, but at least, sampaikan lah dakwah itu semana yg kita mampu, and let Allah do the rest, Allah knows better our niat and insyaAllah, Allah will help....

this also act as a reminder for myself.... i'm soo happy seeing a lot of my friends begin to hijrah from being a not so good person to a lot of people sayin as, u are 'human'.... i myself, admitted, i've done a lot of mistakes and wrongs..... there are times, when i felt so ashamed to Allah.... i've done a lot of terrible things, but still, Allah still there with me when i'm in need.... there are also times when i felt, that i'm not deserve to ask a lot of goods from Allah, when i myself done so little good deeds to Him..... astaghfirullah hal a'zim.....

having my age turning to twenty, really taught me a lot.... people may say i'm not mature enough, but my age doesn't symbolize my experiences for these twenty years of life i've been lived.... 'mature' for me, is when you have the experiences and you know how to use your brain enough to think wisely for every actions you may do in the future..... thus, for me, mature is not all about your age, everyone can be a mature person, anytime when they want.... 

therefore, the more i think about my age, the more i've come to realize, i live no longer years in this dunia anymore .... i may die anytime.... no one knows.... and one thing i know for sure, i wanna die in iman.... and, if i want to achieve that goal of mine, i need to change right now.... maybe little by little.... but i'm gonna starting it now.... time waits us no more.... insyaAllah....

Wassalam....

alhamdulillah, i'm still alive now.... okay i've been abandoned this blog again.... sorry.... i'm juz too busy with uni's life.... 

all of sudden, it cross my mind, that i wanna write something.... alhamdulillah i managed to finish my first year of studies in mechanical eng at my lovely UMP... the results... hmm.... let the time tells....

this first year.... really tests me.... only Allah knows everything.... i plan things, but He's the one that's gonna decide whether i'll go with my plan or His plan.... and i believe His plan is the best for me.... i juz need to keep strong and keep going even when it hurts a lot, i need to think smart and believe in Allah.... He's always gonna be by our side.... He's always there in our heart.....

but again, i'm juz another ordinary people..... i'm not perfect.... there are times when i feel really down.... people sayin, "if u fall, u get up and if u fall again, u get up again....never give up...." even i agree with it..... well i tried.... and done it already.... for how many times? i guess i forgot.... haha.... bear with this quote really annoys me actually.... cuz the memory of mine when 'i fall' and the thought of 'let me lie down here for a while, let me rest....my legs are in so much pain rite now, they 'tired' of gettin up and end up fallin again...' that crossed in my mind at tat time, is still clear.... at that time, seriously, 'givin up' feels so 'empty'.... i didn't feel guilty for myself when i decided to give up.... i'm the worst person on the earth, isn't? yup, that's what i told myself....

it took quite a long time, tryin to calm myself.... think deep.... and in the end..... i guess i owe "positive thoughts" again....keep on thinking positive things really helps me a lot.... though, sometimes i'm gettin tired of it..... but thanks to it, i'm having myself back again..... 

"Setiap yang berlaku, pasti ada hikmahnye..."

"Allah tak akan beri ujian lebih dari beban yg hamba-Nya mampu, dan bila Allah beri ujian tu, Dia pasti akan membantu hamba-Nya melalui ujian-Nya...."

"Susah macam mana sekalipun, jangan pernah putus asa, Allah tak suke orang yg tak berusaha...."

"akar tu mmg la pahit, tp buah nye manis.... law nk berjaye kena la susah dulu...."

"kalau orang lain boleh, kenape kita tak boleh?keep on thinking please...."

"don't give in too easily.... always remember your obstacles are not big enough compared to others.... considered yourself, that you are still lucky... "

(=  nothin feel much better than 'tryin' your best to bring your own selves towards success =)

"betulkan niat kerana Allah, insyaAllah Dia akan tolong kita..... solat dan Quran jangan lupe, sahabat..."

Assalamualaikum.... hmm... skang dah start dah sem 2...alhamdulillah, saye masih lg 'bernyawa' as an eng mechanical student at UMP.... haha.... result hari tu, tidaklah seberapa.... mule2 dapat, down... but then, after heard that 60++ dak mechy kena kick out.... Allah sahaja yg tahu, betapa bersyukur nya hati ni rase pada ketika itu juga....at least i'm still given for another chance.... not just a chance to continue my studies in sem 2, but another chance for me to improve myself for my soon-not-yet-to-be-confirmed-future as an eng mechy student.... haha....

But, as usual, i'll always tell myself, "dun give up, do your very best"..... haha.... forcing my way of thinking to be a positive-minded sometimes do annoy me... haha.... but for me, no best motivation other than our own motivation for ourselves.... =)

Gonna work harder this time.... in my case, need to study hard, study smart and study hard again....

carving for a better future, is not just an ordinary hope, it mean a lot for people like me~

okay, back to what i really want to write here... hmm.... yeah, 'relationship' between my friends.... everyone needs friends, i myself need friends.... but on our way to have friends, many 'things and thoughts' come across.....this is one of the examples.... i believe that almost everyone on this world must have felt this kind of feeling.... we thought that, we have done a good job as a friend, i mean we had fun together, we shared our past and dreams, we studied together n etc .... all these things will make us feel that, 'yeah, i'm doing great with my friends '.... but then how about this > have this idea ever come across our mind, that is "am i the only one who tried my best to be a 'friend' to her, while she just seem to be being a so-so friend to me?" haven't it?

i did.... it's not like i'm expecting sumthin from a friendship... but sometimes, when people being a so-so friend like that, you are able to notice it right? and when it happen, aren't you feel like 'am i not welcome as her friend? sentap~' haha... so... what am i tryin to say here is that, i experienced this situation... and it felt bad...

really bad and not to mention, it actually hurts... and until now, i still dunno how to solve this problem... sometimes, i tell myself to just let it go, don't think of it too much, it just gonna make me sad, but, i just can't... it bothers me...

hmm... i guess, i'm still immature when it comes to social thingy ... but, i'll try my best to overcome this weakness of mine.... keep on praying for a better day...

Salam.....lama tak menulis dah....haha... mcm2 da berlaku semenjak da bergelar mahasiswi ni .....stlh sekian lame mencube untuk 'mempertahankan' prinsip tak nk wat fb, akhirnya retak jugak .....bkn ape..... da bnyk kali da saye kena 'marah' ngn member2 class cuz takde fb .....sebab dak2 ni law updates ape2 sume gne fb..... tak men da mesej2 phone..... membazir kedit katanye..... phone pun sume da canggih2 blake, boleh log in fb trus law ada line..... so,mcm mane la saye nk tw updates mereka ni,sedangkan saye pn takde fb.....law saye tak tanye,mmg alamat saye tak tw ape2 la..... cnth yang plg utama, updates yang berkaitan ngn studies n kuliah....assgnmnts ke, project ke, kuiz ka, hints ke n etc....


So, terpaksa la wat.....haha....mule2 wat uh, da mcm 'jejak kasih' da saye ni ngn member2 lame....add sane, add sini....haha.... hmm..... dan mmg la, walaupun saye br shj ada fb ni, tp saye perasan jugak la kpd satu 'perkara' ni.... once da facebooking, mmg khayal la....n i'm almost becomes one of the 'victim' .....bahaya2..... minta dielakkan la..... huhu

Tapi ade satu menda yang saye ske.....dowang ni ske meng'like' artikel2 yang pelbagai genre.....dan kita pun leh nmpk ape yang dowang like kat box tepi uh.....bile da perasan, kita pun 'jenguk'lah artikel2 uh..... so, secara kesimpulan nye, melalui mende2 cam ni lah, saye dapat info yang mcm2.....seronok!!!! haha.... yang bawa faedah la yang pasti, yang fun2 uh, layan sket2 je la.....

Hmm....tup,tup da nk dekat sebulan da saye ada fb....hehe....hopes i can use my fb in the right way.....please remind me if i misuse my fb, cuz i'm juz an ordinary person who is unexceptionally do mistakes like others.... thank you....