Assalamualaikum wr wb... alhamdulillah may all praises be to Allah... fufu.... next september, i'll continue my studies again.... new semester.... and as a second year student to be more precisely.... lovely.... alhamdulillah, i managed to finish my first year last june with.... hmm, not so flying ranbow-ing  colours, but most importantly, i love my second sem's result, i'm so grateful with it.... =)

Up until now, the thought of reluctant studying physics and unstable condition bearing the name as a mechanical engineering student is still playing in my mind and not to mention, my heart too.... when i'm all alone in my room, i'll always recalling back the moments when i was an eager bio student (eager? well, exaggerated a bit there...fufu~ ) during my matriks' life.... i always imagining things, what if right now i'm wearing a white cloth and studying human anatomy or reading a thick book and writing down the summary and all the points that needed to be taken noted on? isn't it nice......? isn't it gonna looks sooo perfect like what i've imagined my future of when i was still studying at matriks back then? hmm....

But, all of those were in the past dear.... all the futures with white coat and all the nerdy looking of you that you kept on imagining once, had now gone.... it's gone.... or should it be like it never even have a chance to happen in the first place, to be well said.... yup, well said.... =)

SO! NOW, WAKE UP MY DEAR!! you are no longer need to remember those not-gonna-happen futures of yours with sad and regret feelings anymore.... but, at the same time, do not forget all those happy moments when you trying so hard sketched your precious futures back then before you went to sleep... those moments are lovely.... so kept them well in your memories.... no need to get rid of it, cuz when the time comes that is, 10 or 20 years ahead, and you'll remember it again,  you gonna smile and laughing at it....^^

as what i've written above, now with the new semester waiting ahead in less than 2 weeks, i have made up my mind.... this one, is gonna be the real one.... i wanna say it out loud..

Assalamualaikum wr wb.... alhamdulillah, today, we, aminuddin 02-04 managed to having our iftar together.... it'll surely gonna be in one of my precious memories... thank youuu sooo much you handsome guys and lovely girls... and also thank you for paying the food for us girls.... =)

ok, knew it, my eyes closed... huhu...

why huh that 'pak cik' didn't count 1,2,3... ugh~ =(

the guys~

the girls~

wassalam...

Assalamualaikum wr wb.... Ramadhan has comes to its end.... ya Allah, ya rabb, i'm gonna miss this Ramadhan again.... during Ramadhan we are encouraged to do a lot of ibadah, be it the wajib ones or the sunat ones, do it as much as you can.... especially tarawih, ya Allah, only in this holy Ramadhan that we can perform sunat tarawih, but still, why many people still 'malas' to do it? rugilah saudara/ri ku sayang ....

for me, this Ramadhan gives me chances to overlook back all the things that i've done before this.... muhasabah diri??? actually muhasabah diri needs to be done everyday before sleep, but oh well, i guess i'm to into dunia so much that i always take this thing lightly... astaghfirullah....

so, today, my friend asked me something about malam lailatul qadar and a hadith riwayat Bukhari... she asked me whether last night, 23 Ramadhan, is the malam lailatul qadar or not... and i answered her with.... hmm, quite a simple answer, no need to write it down here.... then, all of sudden, i dunno where this power of mine came from, urging me to google about that lailatul qadar so that i can give this girl a more proper answer.... and i did.... ya Allah, so many things that i actually didn't know about lailatul qadar.... how... how ignorance am i?

i'm old already... twenty-year-old.... at least for me, that's what i thought about my age.... but then again, a lot of things  i still do not know.... i always, always take things too lightly....that's why i guess, even sometimes the simplest information can slip through my fingers easily, without i'm noticing it, how actually important it is..... then, this came.... one question from my friend of mine brought me to reality.... thank you so much....

i need to learn, and keep on learning with no ends.... i do not want to be trap in this 'ignorance balloon' anymore, it'll be blown up for nothing....

Assalamualaikum.... alhamdulillah, that i'm given another chance to live in this holy month, Ramadhan.... i'm on my holiday, waiting to enter university back in about a month ahead.... while waiting to continue my next sem. i've managed to contact some of my old friends.... of course i'm happy, being able to talk, having a nice conversation with, hanging out with them again .... but, aside from that..... what i've come to realize is that.... some of them, are "changing"....  ^^

some changed from bad to good, alhamdulillah.... some, good to better, masyaAllah.... and some, mebe need our guidance to bring them back where they should be.... we are not perfect and we live in this dunia with everyone.... helping each other is a must.... though, we might not that good, but at least, sampaikan lah dakwah itu semana yg kita mampu, and let Allah do the rest, Allah knows better our niat and insyaAllah, Allah will help....

this also act as a reminder for myself.... i'm soo happy seeing a lot of my friends begin to hijrah from being a not so good person to a lot of people sayin as, u are 'human'.... i myself, admitted, i've done a lot of mistakes and wrongs..... there are times, when i felt so ashamed to Allah.... i've done a lot of terrible things, but still, Allah still there with me when i'm in need.... there are also times when i felt, that i'm not deserve to ask a lot of goods from Allah, when i myself done so little good deeds to Him..... astaghfirullah hal a'zim.....

having my age turning to twenty, really taught me a lot.... people may say i'm not mature enough, but my age doesn't symbolize my experiences for these twenty years of life i've been lived.... 'mature' for me, is when you have the experiences and you know how to use your brain enough to think wisely for every actions you may do in the future..... thus, for me, mature is not all about your age, everyone can be a mature person, anytime when they want.... 

therefore, the more i think about my age, the more i've come to realize, i live no longer years in this dunia anymore .... i may die anytime.... no one knows.... and one thing i know for sure, i wanna die in iman.... and, if i want to achieve that goal of mine, i need to change right now.... maybe little by little.... but i'm gonna starting it now.... time waits us no more.... insyaAllah....

Wassalam....